Apparently, life must go on.....

It is difficult to even begin to say thank you for all of the kindness and support that has been extended to me over the past couple of weeks. Times like these are so trying, and can also be so interesting. You really learn a lot about people. I have found empathy and compassion in the most unlikely places. Things certainly do become much clearer when the chips are down. What's clear to me now is that its time to get back to work. I still haven't accepted what is....not whole heartedly. I suspected that most of the world would move on long before I was ready....that's just human nature. This past weekend was the first time in a couple of weeks that I went out and did some errands. I was amazed to find the world still chugging along. How can that be? One thing I have whole heartedly accepted is that my life is different now. It will not, and cannot ever be the same. It will again get to the point where the joy exceeds the sorrow and the fun exceeds the grief. Not yet....but someday. My anger at losing Ron is beginning to give way to an unbelievable gratitude. I got to have that extraordinary man in my heart and in my life for 13 hysterical years. Best of all, we both recognized how fantastic it was years before it came to a close. We were the best friends we could have been to each other, long before anyone uttered the word cancer....and really...isn't that when it matters the most? It is with a massive hole in my heart that I return to the air and see what is around the next turn. That's what the job calls for, and no one understood that more than Ron. I hope you'll join me.