Back on the Horse

I suppose its about time that I got back to my blogging ways. I'm afraid it has been one of the many casualties of the difficult days I have been faced with lately. To a certain extent my job has always been about leaving your real life at the door, the more unpleasant parts anyway, and putting on a more entertaining front. That has definitely gotten easier to do with the passage of time, but it takes a toll. I still miss Ron every single day. He continues to be the first thing I think of every morning and the last thing I think of every night. Most days still include a tear and a wonder of why? I would never have believed you could miss someone so much. That being said, recovery comes more quickly, and my gratitude for the years of love and laughter is palpable. I have a picture of Ron and I sitting next to my computer at home. It's the 2 of us at Opryland theme park back in 1996. We are laughing in the bright sunshine, and there's not a hint that things could ever be anything but wonderful. It was very near the beginning of our partnership, and we already knew we had something special. I will look at that photo and smile every day for the rest of my life. At first I was outraged that the rest of the world seemed to move on so quickly. I have come to realize that how quickly others move forward is meaningless to me. I will get there when I get there, and that's just fine. My life is different now, and it will never go back to the way it was, but some familiarity is returning, and my blog seems like a nice place to start. Most people have been patient and respectful about the gap in blog bonus words. To those people, I thank you. Score 250 points with the word "compassion" until June 12th. God Bless.